Resist implies there’s an attraction between two things. Urge refers to a compulsion or pulling/pushing towards something.
Where do I fail?
I have a difficult time resisting the urge to continue to work on a task until its completion. On one hand: It’s difficult to stop because completed tasks are so satisfying! On the other hand: There is this fear of never getting it done at all.
An example of that failure:
I should have allowed the interruption of my son wanting to show me his Minecraft log. I was working on a task – a good, and important one – of squaring away our family finances.
In that instance, I can see that I should have said no to the urge to complete the task so that I could say yes to my son and be there for him.
16 And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, “You may surely eat of every tree of the garden, 17 but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.”Genesis 2:16-17 (ESV)
Adam and Eve had the ability to say no to temptation. They chose not to and replaced God in their hearts with themselves.
As believers, baptized with the Spirit of God within, we can choose right, and surrender to God’s work in our lives. Sabbath is about that surrender.
God loves us not because of what we can do (work), but because of who we are. God chose us, and we are His.
This concept of “just be” is hard for me! I feel like I’m wasting the day if I’m not engaged in some kind of endeavor. When I sleep in like I did this morning, there’s this revealing in the luxury and then this big irritation at having wasted all that time. Why am I alive if not to produce works?
God loves me because I am His. That is enough.
It’s not that I feel less loved if not productive. I simply feel time ticking away, and we only have so long before we’re done. It seems horribly wasteful to not do anything.
My pastor said once that interruptions are our ministry. It rings in my head very frequently.
I don’t have to complete the task now. I can resist the urge to continue towards completion. I can choose my family, the interruptions, and be present for those that need me.
Resisting the urge to continue is surrendering to God’s guidance in my life.